Monday, February 9, 2015

#Microblog Monday--Mommy's here

It's Saturday night and for reasons known only to toddlers Lotus will not sleep in her crib. After two tries and then an equal number of stern warnings that she is not to play vaulting over sleeping mommy and daddy we bring her into our bed.

Sometime around 3:00 am she wakes with a cry and tries to hit her way out of bed. More asleep than awake she's crying and shaking. I sit up and grab her and hold her.

"Mommy's here." I say lifting her little hand to my chin. She rubs my chin and starts to calm down.

"Mommy?" she asks. Her little voice is so scared.

"Mommy's here." I said. I put her other hand on D. "Daddy's here too." She hiccups once and then settles down. I rock her a little bit and then lay down, running my hand over her hair. I want to go into her dreams and take a baseball bat to whatever it that has terrified her. She gives a little moan and I whisper again, "Mommy's here." She drifts off into sleep and I'm now wide awake.

I get up for a little and start to cry myself. I wish with all of my heart I could pick up the phone and hear "Mommy's here." from my own Mommy. It's been 10 months and I miss her so damn much.


  1. The last few lines made me bawl. I'm so sorry, sweetie.

  2. What a beautiful post. So tender. I hear you on wanting your mom to do the same for you.

  3. My heart aches for you. Wiping the tears away, because this post hits hard. Sending hugs to you. One day at a time.

  4. This is so heart rending, I'm so sorry.

  5. I'm so sorry. I wish I could do the same!