Monday, February 23, 2015

#Microblog Monday--For my husband, my dearest love

A while ago there was a brouhaha on the internet because someone said she loved her husband more than she loved her child. I remember going to the post in question and she said that if they were both drowning, she would save her husband first.

I told this to my beloved D and he said of course. "You'd save me, and then together we'd save Lotus." 

That ended it. 

To say that I have been--a challenge--to live with the last few weeks would be the king of understatement. As my unemployment has run out I'm panicking about money--though we have a cushion. I'm feeling low--though I have been considering becoming a stay at home mom. I'm a jittery mess. 

Yesterday I went insane trying to figure out what to do for dinner. I huffed at D. Yelled. Slept. Cuddled Lotus who was in a big "let's throw things at people" mood. I cried a lot. 

Through it all, my husband hugged me, calmed me down and let me lean upon his amazing shoulders. He makes it clear that he doesn't care what I do, as long as I do what I want. I have screwed up a lot of things in my life. I feel bad about a lot of things in my life--but I am so, so, very lucky that I took this man's hand under a wedding canopy and promised my life to him. I'm so very grateful he promised his life to me as well. 


4 comments:

  1. I remember Ayelet Waldman saying something like that- she is a local author here is N.Ca and I remember it being a big deal. I'm glad that you found the partner you did. It sounds like you two make a wonderful foundation for your parenting your daughter.

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  2. That is love. Your husband is a good human to be there for you when you need him the most. You are a blessed woman. :) And I agree with the view above, I love my husband more than my kid. I love my kid a lot. Sometimes I do feel that my son comes first but that's just the mother in me. As a woman, a person I know I love my husband more. And I don't find anything wrong with it. I believe that is the best gift we can give to our kids- by loving eaching other more and more. :)

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  3. I love this so much (and I hope you showed it to him): "I have screwed up a lot of things in my life. I feel bad about a lot of things in my life--but I am so, so, very lucky that I took this man's hand under a wedding canopy and promised my life to him. I'm so very grateful he promised his life to me as well."

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  4. Staying at home has a lot of positives for the whole family

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