The Newness

So, after a little over a year after I was fired from my old one, I started a new job.

It's contract work--temp--but except for one job every job I had has started out temp. I can make myself indispensable. I'm pretty good at it.

It's in a division of publishing and I look forward to calling my old job and putting some feet to the fire--as I know I will have to. So far I'm enjoying it. I like my new co-workers and the commute is far better than my old one.

It has only been two days and we're getting used to the new routine. I'm waking Lotus up early for "school" (Daycare).  So many times over the past year people said that we should have stopped daycare--it would have helped money wise--but I didn't want to stop and start again. It was a good decision, this week would have been hell if she wasn't going to teachers that she knows and loves. It is seldom that I get confirmation that I did something right with Lotus, it was good.

That being said, she's being very whiny. I'm not sure if it is because of the new schedule. Because she's three, or because we just passed our family day. Maybe it's a combination of all of them. She's being very MOMMY clingy too. Which hurts Dave's feelings sometimes.

We're getting to a better place--and yet I've missed mom more in the last two days than I have since I was called that she had died. She loved listening to me rattle on about my new jobs--whatever they might be. She would have marveled that we get free drinks (soft and coffee) all day long and free lunches. She would have asked lots of questions about my new boss and coworkers. She never wants to see me in another bad situation. I miss her.

Things are looking up--I just wish that I could talk to mom without doing that too.